in wanderland

Not much else matters right now when your Grandpa is in an ICU room hooked up to 8 billion tubes and machines. Who coded on the operating table and also in his room. Whose kidneys are in lots of trouble from the medicines, and who has an incision that goes from his neck to his belly button. Praying to Jesus that this is all worth it. That the Lord uses this little miracle of surgery to gift him more life here.

Yesterday he opened his eyes for the first time, squeezed my Grandma’s hand extra hard.. and then went back under. Many tears when I heard that. Open heart surgeries are absolutely mind blowing. Grateful they exist and can make broken things into working things but they are just shockingly brutal. Don’t even google how they do them and what recovery looks like. It’s really bad.

His most dangerous blocked artery also happened to be the smallest one to the heart, which meant the least amount of damage! Praising God for that. Praising God that he is off the ventilator today!!! Praising God that he is TALKING today. Praising God that he is ALIVE. Praying for a kidney miracle. That they not be damaged. Praying for absolute HEALING. That the Lord makes his heart STRONG. That more and more relief and healing will happen in these difficult days ahead. Praying for protection from pneumonia and any other infections! Praying he feels the Lord’s peace now. For comfort in the midst of any pain. That he feels loved and cared for and not alone. That he feels calm and not anxious. That he feels filled with all hope. That God be glorified and praised!

The LORD is my strength and my shield; in him my heart trusts, and I am helped; my heart exults, and with my song I give thanks to him.

- Psalm 28:7